Worry

I try so hard not to worry about things but some days/times I can't help when my mind wanders.

I was doing pretty good, the spotting had stopped for 2 days and the cramping was very minimal.

Well, yesterday mid day the cramping got pretty intense and a few hours later I was spotting. It's still got a little brownish tint to it but it's also got a pinkish hint too....which combined with the intense cramping really got my head in bad places.

I am emotionally trying to detach myself and prepare for this pregnancy to end as the rest have. I was so tired yesterday afternoon, couldn't fall asleep b/c I was cramping and finally went up to bed around 7 to take a nap. I figured Chris would call from work around 8:30ish so his call would wake me up. I woke up around 9:15 on my own. I really wanted to talk to my husband, to let him know my worries and just hear his voice. I tried calling him but got his voicemail, they must have been busy. He didn't ever get back to me.

I really wish that I could sleep through the entire first trimester so that my mind doesn't wander and freak out so much.

I am glad Chris will be home the next 4 days.

Sorry, not much of an update...more just me worrying.

Moving right along

So I am 12dpo today and had a repeat beta/p4 and also had my TSH drawn.

My 10dpo beta was 12.98 and my p4 was 21. The RE wasn't concerned about the number being lower since I was catching the pregnancy early.

I got a little worried on Sunday, about an hour or two after I gave myself my first Lovenox shot...I started spotting. I spotted on/off Sunday and a little into Monday and haven't had much since then except when I go to the bathroom...sorry TMI. : D

I've also had a little bit of cramping here and there but nothing too severe, it's more like I feel like I pull a muscle if I do too much. I'm trying to drink plenty of water and just take it easy.

Todays results are moving in the right direction.

My nurse is betting on multiples. I actually swore on the phone a few times when she said that.

My beta today is 68 and my p4 is 33. My TSH went up to 3.25 so I need to double up on my synthroid.

So I go back on Saturday for another beta/p4 and then again on Monday.

My first ultrasound is 12/19.

We are still not out of the woods but we are moving in the right direction and that is an excellent thing.

10dpo

So I'm 10dpo today.

I tested yesterday because we were going to dinner for my birthday and I planned on having a margarita. I used a wondfo brand cheapie and it was stark white. I did order a margarita with dinner but it was the worst margarita I have ever had in my life. I think I drank about 1/2 in off the top and then couldn't drink anymore. Also, the guacamole didn't taste quite right. I even said at dinner that it tasted like it had mayo in it.

So this morning I decided to test again, definitely expecting a negative again. After all, I have never gotten a positive HPT before 13-14dpo.

I was quite shocked when this appeared, actually I was so shocked that I thought it was a faulty test or evap and took another...



I called the RE office and they had me come right in for blood work. I got there at 7:30am, was in and out quickly. Usually the office calls with results earlier on the weekends but not until 10am-ish. When my phone rang and it was 8:45am, I picked it up and it was Dr. Miller himself!!! He congratulated me and wanted me to start on the Lovenox today.

Since it takes a few days for the pharmacy to get the Lovenox in, he said they could give me some samples but I had to swing by the office. So I drove back to the office and got some samples. The nurse was awesome, she hugged me and said she'd pray that this one sticks. She also made me give myself todays injection. That baby hurt bad but is oh so worth it if I stay pregnant.

I got back Tuesday morning for a repeat beta, p4 and my thyroid level.

Prayers are appreciated, although we are excited....we are still very cautious.