Yup, you got it....looks like AF will be here even before my dumb beta.
I have had some pretty decent cramping for the last few days (two days for sure, probably three that it's been bothering me.)
When I got up this morning (at 4:30am!!) I went pee, took a pregnancy test that was obviously more negative than negative could be. And when I wiped....there was spotting.
Awesome. Well, not really but I did know that this cycle was a bust early on.
I'm thinking AF will show either later today or sometime tomorrow.
I'm trying to decide if doing treatment cycles the next two months are worth it or not. I know the holidays add their own unique stress but shooting up hormones while trying to get through the holidays may make for some very enjoyable (not) holidays for everyone that has to deal with me.
If we do another IUI right now (well, this coming cycle that should be starting in a day or so) and it doesn't work, we can do one final one in December and gear up for IVF in late Jan/early Feb 2012. Or we can do a third and final IUI right now and take December off and start IVF in Jan/Feb.
I have to talk to my husband about all this as these are just thoughts going through my head.
Or, we can just stop trying to have a kid and adopt another dog and just be pet lovers. Way easier, their shit decomposes outside and you can put them in a crate and leave.
I also have to say it....the Duggars make me sick. Seriously, TWENTY??? What a farking joke. God doesn't bless you, you're just blessed with fertility and horny. Really though, how the hell do they even find time to have sex?!?!
Yes, I am bitter today. And you know what, I'm allowed to be. If you don't like it or want to deal with it, simply find the little "x" and click on it.
I have to say I am super thankful we didn't lose power last night. I really was worried we were going to and I'd have to deal with the generator and I can't start that damn thing. Plus, with the inspection this morning I was super nervous that the power wouldn't be back on.
I'm also thankful for chocolate. Yes, I have had even more in the last day or so. I also plan on ordering greasy pizza for dinner and having a drink with it.
Ok, I think I've made my point. I'll update again in a day or two when I've decided on what we'll do and am not so bitter and crabby.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Three days and other ramblings.
So, I called today to move my beta up. I didn't give the nurse any reasoning and just said I wouldn't be available Sunday. My usual nurse is out until the 18th...so I spoke with someone else. I also asked for a refill on my PNV's. I usually use Walgreens but had her call it into Meijer so I could get the free ones. I feel guilty getting free ones though, they are not the same and I feel like somehow they are not as "good" as the Prefera OB w/DHA that I've been taking for the last year.
So, Saturday will be the day of doom. I'm already trying to prep my brain that I know it'll be negative.
I have been testing out my trigger, I'm 12dpt today. At 10dpt, the test line was gone. Yesterday at 11dpt, it was back faint but definitely there. Today at 12dpt, there was nothing there. We're talking stark white, can't get anymore negative nothing there. I honestly didn't get too excited yesterday with the faint line because I didn't expect this cycle to work. I kept telling myself that it was just the trigger fooling me. I was not surprised this morning when it was clearly negative. Actually, I wasn't that disappointed either. I knew yesterday was just a fluke.
I caved after 26 days of no candy, caffeine or fast food. I got all 3 in one day. Oops. I actually bought a bag of hersheys kisses, the hugs ones. They are pretty good, I have to ration myself so I don't get out of control again.
On Monday I made the dog a bright orange vest to wear for when we walk him in the woods. It turned out pretty nice. It fit him nicely and I was pretty happy that I made it in a few hours. I killed my hips and back though because I just sat on the hardwood floor and used the foot pedal with my hand. I'm still paying the price for that a few days later. Yesterday I made him booties for walking in the snow with. They turned out nice too. I need to make a few more pairs since they will get dirty and need to be washed daily. I think I will make the next 2 pairs just a little bit bigger than the first pair I did. Otherwise, I'm happy with them. Here's a pictures of pup in his new vest!
We have the inspection here tomorrow, 8:30am. Yikes that's early but don't worry...I'll be up. I've been up by 5am everyday this week from the dumb time change.
It's raining here today and supposed to snow tomorrow. Oh joy, I can hardly wait.
I have a massive amount of laundry to do but still haven't started it. I am procrastinating but am contemplating taking a nap. It's so gloomy and cold here today, I just want to snuggle in the bed.
So, Saturday will be the day of doom. I'm already trying to prep my brain that I know it'll be negative.
I have been testing out my trigger, I'm 12dpt today. At 10dpt, the test line was gone. Yesterday at 11dpt, it was back faint but definitely there. Today at 12dpt, there was nothing there. We're talking stark white, can't get anymore negative nothing there. I honestly didn't get too excited yesterday with the faint line because I didn't expect this cycle to work. I kept telling myself that it was just the trigger fooling me. I was not surprised this morning when it was clearly negative. Actually, I wasn't that disappointed either. I knew yesterday was just a fluke.
I caved after 26 days of no candy, caffeine or fast food. I got all 3 in one day. Oops. I actually bought a bag of hersheys kisses, the hugs ones. They are pretty good, I have to ration myself so I don't get out of control again.
On Monday I made the dog a bright orange vest to wear for when we walk him in the woods. It turned out pretty nice. It fit him nicely and I was pretty happy that I made it in a few hours. I killed my hips and back though because I just sat on the hardwood floor and used the foot pedal with my hand. I'm still paying the price for that a few days later. Yesterday I made him booties for walking in the snow with. They turned out nice too. I need to make a few more pairs since they will get dirty and need to be washed daily. I think I will make the next 2 pairs just a little bit bigger than the first pair I did. Otherwise, I'm happy with them. Here's a pictures of pup in his new vest!
We have the inspection here tomorrow, 8:30am. Yikes that's early but don't worry...I'll be up. I've been up by 5am everyday this week from the dumb time change.
It's raining here today and supposed to snow tomorrow. Oh joy, I can hardly wait.
I have a massive amount of laundry to do but still haven't started it. I am procrastinating but am contemplating taking a nap. It's so gloomy and cold here today, I just want to snuggle in the bed.
Monday, November 7, 2011
"The antidote to depression is compassion"
We had a nice weekend even though I wasn't feeling great. I think I am coming down with a cold, it started late last week and seems to just be sorta hanging on. Nothing bad, more of an annoyance than anything.
It was stunning here this weekend, the weather was gorgeous and pretty much perfect fall weather. Sunny, clear skies and crisp mornings with beautiful afternoons. The time change was (and always is) a little rough on me.
Yesterday we celebrated Nana's birthday, she will be 87 in a few days. It was nice to see the family and spend a day just enjoying being with each other and celebrating Nana.
I went to yoga yesterday morning, it was the first time with this particular instructor and I really enjoyed her class. It was tough, we did a lot of sun salutations and after a few together she let us go at our own pace. Near the end of the class, we were doing some gentle stretching and relaxing and the instructor said a lot of uplifting things. I think the one that rings true to me right now is the quote I have for today's entry. She also reminded us to check in with ourselves every couple of hours and see what kind of person we have been to others, where have our thoughts been and where do we want our thoughts to be for the next few hours. It was an excellent reminder that although you may have a bad moment, don't let it ruin your entire day.
Dealing with infertility and pregnancy loss can bring you down lower than you thought you'd ever go. Although I have many friends (online and a few IRL) that can relate I still feel so alone on this journey. I often feel depressed and worthless. I think what she said really was a blessing and reminder to me to continue to be compassionate towards others and it will lift me up.
So we also received some really exciting news yesterday. We were with my husbands family and I went to get my phone. I had a voicemail from the real estate companies phone number, instead of calling them back right away I listened to my voicemail. It was our agent and we had an offer on the house!!!! I motioned for Chris to come outside and told him (it was really loud in the house.) We called our agent back and got the details. We ended up discussing it and countering back. Our agent was on the road in between showings so we didn't expect to hear back from him last night at all. We left my inlaws house around 5pm. It was maybe 6pm or so and we were relaxing on the couch and he called. They accepted our counter offer! Closing will be within 45 days and they will get possession at closing.
I AM SO RELIEVED!!! I was so worried we were going to have to go through the holidays with two houses and two mortgages. I have been stressing so much about it and more so about not being able to truly celebrate the holidays because money was too tight.
Oh...if the papers are signed today, closing will be before or on 12/21/11.
Our new house closing should be around the 22nd of this month. We gave the current owners an additional 45 days after closing. Which, if you do the math.....we may be homeless for a few weeks. Because 45 days after closing brings us to 01/06/12.
We can stay with family for a few weeks, we'll deal but it'll definitely be hard right at the holidays but I think the worst part will be having to move twice...once wherever we go and then a few weeks later again. Hopefully this will be our last move for many, many years! : )
It was stunning here this weekend, the weather was gorgeous and pretty much perfect fall weather. Sunny, clear skies and crisp mornings with beautiful afternoons. The time change was (and always is) a little rough on me.
Yesterday we celebrated Nana's birthday, she will be 87 in a few days. It was nice to see the family and spend a day just enjoying being with each other and celebrating Nana.
I went to yoga yesterday morning, it was the first time with this particular instructor and I really enjoyed her class. It was tough, we did a lot of sun salutations and after a few together she let us go at our own pace. Near the end of the class, we were doing some gentle stretching and relaxing and the instructor said a lot of uplifting things. I think the one that rings true to me right now is the quote I have for today's entry. She also reminded us to check in with ourselves every couple of hours and see what kind of person we have been to others, where have our thoughts been and where do we want our thoughts to be for the next few hours. It was an excellent reminder that although you may have a bad moment, don't let it ruin your entire day.
Dealing with infertility and pregnancy loss can bring you down lower than you thought you'd ever go. Although I have many friends (online and a few IRL) that can relate I still feel so alone on this journey. I often feel depressed and worthless. I think what she said really was a blessing and reminder to me to continue to be compassionate towards others and it will lift me up.
So we also received some really exciting news yesterday. We were with my husbands family and I went to get my phone. I had a voicemail from the real estate companies phone number, instead of calling them back right away I listened to my voicemail. It was our agent and we had an offer on the house!!!! I motioned for Chris to come outside and told him (it was really loud in the house.) We called our agent back and got the details. We ended up discussing it and countering back. Our agent was on the road in between showings so we didn't expect to hear back from him last night at all. We left my inlaws house around 5pm. It was maybe 6pm or so and we were relaxing on the couch and he called. They accepted our counter offer! Closing will be within 45 days and they will get possession at closing.
I AM SO RELIEVED!!! I was so worried we were going to have to go through the holidays with two houses and two mortgages. I have been stressing so much about it and more so about not being able to truly celebrate the holidays because money was too tight.
Oh...if the papers are signed today, closing will be before or on 12/21/11.
Our new house closing should be around the 22nd of this month. We gave the current owners an additional 45 days after closing. Which, if you do the math.....we may be homeless for a few weeks. Because 45 days after closing brings us to 01/06/12.
We can stay with family for a few weeks, we'll deal but it'll definitely be hard right at the holidays but I think the worst part will be having to move twice...once wherever we go and then a few weeks later again. Hopefully this will be our last move for many, many years! : )
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Disappointed
So yesterday was great (with the exception of my p4 results but we'll get to that in a bit.)
I started out early, I had to get to the clinic for my blood work. I woke up around 5:15 am and decided to hop in the shower so I could be done before Chris got up for work. I was excited to wear some of my new clothes that my mom bought me, I didn't feel like the usual slouch in just jeans and a t-shirt. I also actually did my hair, which made me feel good too.
Once I got home I had to pick things up and I made 2 loaves of banana bread. We had some people coming to look at the house so I needed to get out and figured since it was a beautiful day I would walk the dog. The people arrived early and I was rushing to get out of the house before they saw me. Literally as I closed the door to the laundry room they were opening the front door. Pup enjoyed the walk, we took our time since the people had a full hour. About 35 min later I got back to our street and saw the cars were gone so I came back home.
I had to get pup's crate back together and had about 15 minutes to get my knitting bag together before I had to leave for my knitting class. I'm working on the same Christmas stocking that is going to be the death of me. Yesterday I finished the heel turn and am now in the foot of the sock. I'll be at the toe soon and will hopefully get started on the next one within the week. I need them done before Christmas!
Once I got home from knitting class I ate some early dinner and relaxed for a couple of hours, I really should have napped but didn't want to sleep like crap so I forced myself to stay awake.
I heard from my nurse around 2:15pm. My p4 results are right on the border. They like to see them 10 or above and mine was right at 10. I was really hoping that it would be a little higher and am pretty disappointed. She said I don't need to start progesterone, which is a good thing but I am not sure if I'm comfortable with this. I know I was 3dpo for the p4 check and I'm comparing what my previous doctor wanted at 7dpo. I know I shouldn't worry and I'm not panicking but I am definitely nervous that it's not higher. I'm not having much for symptoms, my boobs are sore but I think that's from the trigger. I also have had gas but I've been eating a fair amount of pasta. I am testing out the trigger, it seems to be fading slower than last cycle.
I go in for my beta on the 13th. I plan on calling and asking the nurse today if I can move it to the 12th. The 13th is not a good day at all. It is the 1 year anniversary of my D&C and also grandmas death. I had my D&C early in the morning, we got home around 11am and both laid down. When we woke up, I told Chris I wanted to go see grandma and he started crying saying that she passed away just a short time ago. I feel really dumb to ask to come a day earlier but I honestly don't want anything else negative added to the day. Obviously I intend on hearing that my beta is negative. Not having much hope this cycle at all....negative nancy, I know.
Last night I also went to yoga, it was amazing. I felt great during and after. The instructor was wonderful, I expected to need a lot more help but only needed correcting once because I was stretching too far in triangle pose. I am really glad I asked for this as a birthday gift, I think I am going to really enjoy it immensely.
I'm not sure what today holds, Chris is on his first day of a four day. I'm hoping to get out and walk on the trail with him and the dog. I'm making minestrone for dinner. I plan on going to yoga tonight again.
Tomorrow I'm meeting with a fellow IF friend. She is in the middle of her second IVF cycle. I'm not sure what we're planning to do yet but I'm looking forward to seeing her. I also am going to a Resolve meeting tomorrow night, it's a different one than the first meeting I went to. I hope this one is a better fit for me.
Thats all for now....off to unload the dishwasher and do a few things around the house before Chris gets home.
I started out early, I had to get to the clinic for my blood work. I woke up around 5:15 am and decided to hop in the shower so I could be done before Chris got up for work. I was excited to wear some of my new clothes that my mom bought me, I didn't feel like the usual slouch in just jeans and a t-shirt. I also actually did my hair, which made me feel good too.
Once I got home I had to pick things up and I made 2 loaves of banana bread. We had some people coming to look at the house so I needed to get out and figured since it was a beautiful day I would walk the dog. The people arrived early and I was rushing to get out of the house before they saw me. Literally as I closed the door to the laundry room they were opening the front door. Pup enjoyed the walk, we took our time since the people had a full hour. About 35 min later I got back to our street and saw the cars were gone so I came back home.
I had to get pup's crate back together and had about 15 minutes to get my knitting bag together before I had to leave for my knitting class. I'm working on the same Christmas stocking that is going to be the death of me. Yesterday I finished the heel turn and am now in the foot of the sock. I'll be at the toe soon and will hopefully get started on the next one within the week. I need them done before Christmas!
Once I got home from knitting class I ate some early dinner and relaxed for a couple of hours, I really should have napped but didn't want to sleep like crap so I forced myself to stay awake.
I heard from my nurse around 2:15pm. My p4 results are right on the border. They like to see them 10 or above and mine was right at 10. I was really hoping that it would be a little higher and am pretty disappointed. She said I don't need to start progesterone, which is a good thing but I am not sure if I'm comfortable with this. I know I was 3dpo for the p4 check and I'm comparing what my previous doctor wanted at 7dpo. I know I shouldn't worry and I'm not panicking but I am definitely nervous that it's not higher. I'm not having much for symptoms, my boobs are sore but I think that's from the trigger. I also have had gas but I've been eating a fair amount of pasta. I am testing out the trigger, it seems to be fading slower than last cycle.
I go in for my beta on the 13th. I plan on calling and asking the nurse today if I can move it to the 12th. The 13th is not a good day at all. It is the 1 year anniversary of my D&C and also grandmas death. I had my D&C early in the morning, we got home around 11am and both laid down. When we woke up, I told Chris I wanted to go see grandma and he started crying saying that she passed away just a short time ago. I feel really dumb to ask to come a day earlier but I honestly don't want anything else negative added to the day. Obviously I intend on hearing that my beta is negative. Not having much hope this cycle at all....negative nancy, I know.
Last night I also went to yoga, it was amazing. I felt great during and after. The instructor was wonderful, I expected to need a lot more help but only needed correcting once because I was stretching too far in triangle pose. I am really glad I asked for this as a birthday gift, I think I am going to really enjoy it immensely.
I'm not sure what today holds, Chris is on his first day of a four day. I'm hoping to get out and walk on the trail with him and the dog. I'm making minestrone for dinner. I plan on going to yoga tonight again.
Tomorrow I'm meeting with a fellow IF friend. She is in the middle of her second IVF cycle. I'm not sure what we're planning to do yet but I'm looking forward to seeing her. I also am going to a Resolve meeting tomorrow night, it's a different one than the first meeting I went to. I hope this one is a better fit for me.
Thats all for now....off to unload the dishwasher and do a few things around the house before Chris gets home.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
November, already?!?
I can't believe that this year has gone by so quickly!
I am in the 2ww and just trying to get by each day. I go tomorrow for my p4 check. I am 99% sure I will be put on a supplement again. I am not feeling too good about this cycle, it doesn't help when I just have to wait it out. I'm bored and there isn't much left to do around the house.
So I had a really nice weekend but I accidentally caffeinated myself. I was meeting a good friend at Starbucks and there was no where to sit. So we walked over to Caribou, I have been there once but it was during the summer and I just ordered whatever my friend got. So I panicked a little because I wasn't sure what I should get. I ended up getting a vanilla northern lite but totally spaced and forgot to ask for caffeine free. I had the first two sips and upon swallowing my third sip, I realized and had a mini mental panic attack. I didn't drink anymore, felt guilty and ended up throwing the rest out. I still feel guilty.
I think I am going to ask for a 3 month unlimited package for yoga for my birthday. I am going to ask for it early so I can start sooner, rather than in a month. Once I talk to my mom, I may go there later today and see if I can sign up.
I am making spaghetti with garlic pita tonight, I am craving it beyond belief.
I am watching Ellen right now, I really love her. She makes me laugh every single time I watch her. I'd love to be on her show.
I need to get working on my knitting again, I need them done before Christmas and I have half of one done. I have class tomorrow from 12-2 but need to get some done today too!
I am in the 2ww and just trying to get by each day. I go tomorrow for my p4 check. I am 99% sure I will be put on a supplement again. I am not feeling too good about this cycle, it doesn't help when I just have to wait it out. I'm bored and there isn't much left to do around the house.
So I had a really nice weekend but I accidentally caffeinated myself. I was meeting a good friend at Starbucks and there was no where to sit. So we walked over to Caribou, I have been there once but it was during the summer and I just ordered whatever my friend got. So I panicked a little because I wasn't sure what I should get. I ended up getting a vanilla northern lite but totally spaced and forgot to ask for caffeine free. I had the first two sips and upon swallowing my third sip, I realized and had a mini mental panic attack. I didn't drink anymore, felt guilty and ended up throwing the rest out. I still feel guilty.
I think I am going to ask for a 3 month unlimited package for yoga for my birthday. I am going to ask for it early so I can start sooner, rather than in a month. Once I talk to my mom, I may go there later today and see if I can sign up.
I am making spaghetti with garlic pita tonight, I am craving it beyond belief.
I am watching Ellen right now, I really love her. She makes me laugh every single time I watch her. I'd love to be on her show.
I need to get working on my knitting again, I need them done before Christmas and I have half of one done. I have class tomorrow from 12-2 but need to get some done today too!
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Holy sore ( . ) ( . ) batman!
So I gave myself the trigger shot last night, maybe last IUI cycle I didn't realize quite how sore it made my boobs but darn do they hurt!
I was late for my insemination this morning, had a rough start to the morning and wasn't able to get out of the house on time. I called and they said it was fine, so I got there as quickly as I could.
Either way, the RE said Chris provided an awesome sample of "rockets." He had 8.9 million good sperm left after they spun them for 45 minutes. I go back again tomorrow and although I know the sample won't be as good since he gave one today and his body won't have the time to recover and the morph will most likely be off but lets hope there is 1 or 2 swimmers in there going to the egg!
I am having some twinges and little cramping here and there but don't think I have actually released either egg yet. I am thinking tomorrow morning I'll have some more cramping pick up and will mark tomorrow as O day.
My mom took me to get a mani/pedi today, we had a wonderful time. I got a dark red/pink on my toes and I got clear on my nails. We also went shopping, she bought me a cute sweater, a mini nail kit for my purse and mini tweezers for my purse. She also gave me a cute pair of slippers and a little make up bag from Clinique! We went to dinner after then came home and walked the dog. It was such a nice day! Thanks mom :)
I think I'm just going to kick back and relax the rest of the night. I feel like I could go to bed right now but I need to try to stay up a little bit longer.
I think Chris and I are going to pick up season 5 of Dexter tomorrow, it's ready at the library for us. I am excited to start it and see what happens! I am also meeting a good friend tomorrow for tea, I am definitely looking forward to seeing her.
I was late for my insemination this morning, had a rough start to the morning and wasn't able to get out of the house on time. I called and they said it was fine, so I got there as quickly as I could.
Either way, the RE said Chris provided an awesome sample of "rockets." He had 8.9 million good sperm left after they spun them for 45 minutes. I go back again tomorrow and although I know the sample won't be as good since he gave one today and his body won't have the time to recover and the morph will most likely be off but lets hope there is 1 or 2 swimmers in there going to the egg!
I am having some twinges and little cramping here and there but don't think I have actually released either egg yet. I am thinking tomorrow morning I'll have some more cramping pick up and will mark tomorrow as O day.
My mom took me to get a mani/pedi today, we had a wonderful time. I got a dark red/pink on my toes and I got clear on my nails. We also went shopping, she bought me a cute sweater, a mini nail kit for my purse and mini tweezers for my purse. She also gave me a cute pair of slippers and a little make up bag from Clinique! We went to dinner after then came home and walked the dog. It was such a nice day! Thanks mom :)
I think I'm just going to kick back and relax the rest of the night. I feel like I could go to bed right now but I need to try to stay up a little bit longer.
I think Chris and I are going to pick up season 5 of Dexter tomorrow, it's ready at the library for us. I am excited to start it and see what happens! I am also meeting a good friend tomorrow for tea, I am definitely looking forward to seeing her.
Friday, October 28, 2011
And then there were two....
I went yesterday (Thursday) and again today for ultrasounds and lab work. I am so tired of getting my arm poked, I can't imagine going through IVF and having more monitoring.
I actually got poked twice today, again! They tried in my right hand first and she was digging around and I finally said I had enough. She went to my wrist and dug around minimally but finally got the vein and blood.
The waiting room was packed today for some reason, it was the usual time I go too.
Yesterday I had 3 follicles, two at 16mm and one at 14mm. My lining was at 9mm yesterday.
Today I have 2 mature follicles, one at 19mm and one at 18mm. My lining is 11mm now. The RE said my lining and follicles were beautiful. I am so so thankful that they have monitored me so well and tweaked my medications each day so that I didn't over respond. I am definitely okay with two mature follicles, an extra target for the swimmers to aim for. I have one on each ovary as well....so no matter what tube the sperm swim up, they will be an egg waiting for them!
I trigger tonight between 8:30-9:00pm. I hope this one doesn't hurt too bad. The other ones haven't hurt but boy am I bruised!
I have to post a funny too. Pooping isn't really a talked about subject but my stomach has been so off and on this past week while on meds. This morning I got up and got ready for my appointment. I drove to the office and about a mile away I felt like I had to go poop. I was hoping to get into the building at the opposite end so I could sneak into the bathroom before my labs and ultrasound but the door was locked!! So I just went into the office and hoped the urge would go away until I got back home. The urge did indeed go away but here is the funny part (at least I think it was funny.) When the RE did the ultrasound, you could see that my bowels were full. I totally recognized on the screen and I know the RE did too. I'm sure it's not the first time they have seen this but it still made me laugh a little.
I ended up telling my husband this story and he told me he was disgusted and never wanted to hear about my full bowels ever again. HAHAHAHAH
So anyways, tomorrow my husband gets to visit the "spank room" as he calls it and then go to work. Shortly after I will arrive and they will do the IUI. Sunday he gets another visit to his special room and we'll do another IUI.
Four days later, I'll go for a p4 check. Hoping that is good and that I don't need progesterone this time again.
Eleven days after that I'll go for a beta. I do plan on testing out my trigger and will post some pictures. Rinse and repeat unless the beta is positive....which I am not too hopeful for. I hate to be negative but I don't want to get my hopes up to have them crash down if it doesn't work.
I actually got poked twice today, again! They tried in my right hand first and she was digging around and I finally said I had enough. She went to my wrist and dug around minimally but finally got the vein and blood.
The waiting room was packed today for some reason, it was the usual time I go too.
Yesterday I had 3 follicles, two at 16mm and one at 14mm. My lining was at 9mm yesterday.
Today I have 2 mature follicles, one at 19mm and one at 18mm. My lining is 11mm now. The RE said my lining and follicles were beautiful. I am so so thankful that they have monitored me so well and tweaked my medications each day so that I didn't over respond. I am definitely okay with two mature follicles, an extra target for the swimmers to aim for. I have one on each ovary as well....so no matter what tube the sperm swim up, they will be an egg waiting for them!
I trigger tonight between 8:30-9:00pm. I hope this one doesn't hurt too bad. The other ones haven't hurt but boy am I bruised!
I have to post a funny too. Pooping isn't really a talked about subject but my stomach has been so off and on this past week while on meds. This morning I got up and got ready for my appointment. I drove to the office and about a mile away I felt like I had to go poop. I was hoping to get into the building at the opposite end so I could sneak into the bathroom before my labs and ultrasound but the door was locked!! So I just went into the office and hoped the urge would go away until I got back home. The urge did indeed go away but here is the funny part (at least I think it was funny.) When the RE did the ultrasound, you could see that my bowels were full. I totally recognized on the screen and I know the RE did too. I'm sure it's not the first time they have seen this but it still made me laugh a little.
I ended up telling my husband this story and he told me he was disgusted and never wanted to hear about my full bowels ever again. HAHAHAHAH
So anyways, tomorrow my husband gets to visit the "spank room" as he calls it and then go to work. Shortly after I will arrive and they will do the IUI. Sunday he gets another visit to his special room and we'll do another IUI.
Four days later, I'll go for a p4 check. Hoping that is good and that I don't need progesterone this time again.
Eleven days after that I'll go for a beta. I do plan on testing out my trigger and will post some pictures. Rinse and repeat unless the beta is positive....which I am not too hopeful for. I hate to be negative but I don't want to get my hopes up to have them crash down if it doesn't work.
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